Vacation plans run amuck

So this month is when the whole family including the inlaws are going to FLA for a vacation... we were going since I should of been on Maternity leave now- but as we all know Nicklaus decided to come early there by forfeiting out vacation plans.  Sad that we will be holding down the fort here would loved to have had a break from this freezing cold!  Now we will be going in the heat of the summer- AUGUST... OMG thank god for pools haha.  The Last Minute Vacation - How to Save Money by Booking Travel at the Last Minute

We'll come back and immdiately get started on the annual Turkey FRY ... we have been posted poned that last couple years and have been excited to be able to throw another bash!  Bayou Classic 3066A 30-Quart Outdoor Turkey Fryer Kit

This month also marked the 4th birthday for Kylie- I am happy to have gotten through the day but not without catching that nasty stomach virus.... that has been going back and forth with Mike and I- thank god the kids didn't catch it.  Although Nick has been a bear that last week so maybe he has his own version...

In the downtime of night I have been able to make progress on my recipes, my networking and EBAY- I hope to soon have my own website up and running where you can purchase my book!  What a great accomplishment for me if I can get there!  I want to integrate some charity in there so don't be surprised if you hear me talking about that.  I think it is important to give back even when I haven't gotten anything yet- just to give is an incredible gift.  To be able to do this without expectation is a true gift.

I digress... I have to think of something to cook - in a house with one eater- hmmm this should be easy but 4 year olds have no idea what they want ... LOL till next time- please feel free to follow me- and watch for updates!  I have added many new things to my blog - check them out there is something for almost everyone! And please share me on facebook-

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Nat

Mom's Birthday, Christmas and time for reflection

So it was mom's birthday, and although I am still not feeling well. Terrible case of viral meningitis, and Kylie has pneumonia- we went down for a couple hours to say hello and acknowledge that this is her day. My mom does so much for my family it is impossible for me to thank her enough. I really couldn't ask for a better mother. Not to discount my dad he does a lot for us as well.

Anyway, we got her the Wii system, my brothers chipped in with my dad to get it for her. She was so excited, she loves the bowling. So after we set it up for her we were on our way. I called to check in on them and to see how they were doing and she was still playing. That is great news I hope she really uses it. It is hard to make my mother as happy as she makes us so if this little gesture can make her smile then it is all worth it.



This time of year is for reflection ... well this year like many hasn't had too much to be happy about. I will start with present time- as the past man I could write a novel.



In January we learned I was pregnant and I couldn't of been more excited to share the news with Mike (hubby) and of course the rest of my family, as this has been my dream for as long as I could remember. To finally meet the man of my dreams and have a ton of children together and live happily ever after. I did in fact find the man of my dreams and married him in 2005. In 2006 we bought our first house together, and in 2007 we had our beautiful baby girl Kylie.

Well the reality of a "ton" of children has turned into two. (after the delivery of Kylie- without drugs). Well this could not have been a more proud moment for us.. everything was going well until we went to have the ultrasound in March. Our world came crumbling down that day as we learned that there was no baby and my body never recognized the loss. So in the hospital I go for a D&E delivery.



Meanwhile I am recovering- Mike is getting ready to graduate the top of his class with his BA from Franklin Pierce. An amazing fete in and of itself. He is living a dream while my step daughter Abby is off to Keene State College and Kylie (my first angel) is in daycare.



Well with several visits back to the Dr. we found this was a terrible fluke- nothing we could of done could of prevented this from happening.



So in May we have the party at our house to celebrate Mike's amazing accomplishment and he sets his plan in motion to fulfill his dream to go to Law school. He wasn't going to take no for an answer from admissions. And so it goes .. no one would say no to Mike either. He did not take a break between his bachelors and going to law school even though his very wise wife told him he really should take a break.... ha ha



So as fathers day rolls around I wanted to really surprise My hubby with some wonderful news...you guessed it -we were again expecting. My dreams are coming true. We are both living out our dreams together?! How amazing. So with nervous excitement the pregnancy goes on. I am so scared and happy that I can't wait to get the ultrasound. Everyone is so happy for us, and for me- knowing that I am having a baby will just fill my heart.



A few months go by, everything is going well and the heartbeat is Strong. My appointment to find out the sex was coming up... I had a later appointment to avoid taking so much time off at work.

Mike, Kylie and I head off for the Dr's. Kylie wants find out if she is going to have a baby brother or sister, she is so excited. She is a little mother herself. As they call my name in the office we go with tremendous excitement and with bated breath. As the baby comes up on the monitor I see that there is no heartbeat, no movement, and again I look to the technician with disbelieve and a heavy heart. Our nightmare has been confirmed, our baby has died. We immediately get whisked away by another Dr. and go through our options. Which I can tell you is so far the most difficult set of decisions I think I have ever had to make. The next day I go back to the hospital to deliver my baby. I chose to be unconscious during the delivery as this was the most humane thing I could do for my baby. I wanted him to come out in one piece and the moment I was told that the force of pushing and delivery could in fact dismember the baby. We had a boy, Justin Michael.

to be continued...